A happy life in my short time

5 weeks without u in physically

2011-10-07T01:30:00.000+01:00

Mom,
Your chair without u, is so sad.....
We miss u and always pray for u.
May Allah give you in a wonderful paradise, as you always give us (ur children n grandchildren) your paradise through your attention and care....
Love you, mom

Ibu

2011-09-26T23:31:00.000+01:00

Ibu,

Kita merindukan ibu...
Biasanya ibu selalu menunggu di ruang tamu, ketika aku bangun dari tidurku..

Ah, semuanya sudah berlalu.... Allah telah memanggilmu 5 September 2011, 5.30 PM
Allah akan memberi tempat yg terbaik di sisiNya, sebagaimana engkau memberi tempat yg baik bagi anak2mu ini.

Kita selalu berdoa untukmu ibu....

busy day on ICEEDM 2011

2011-07-25T13:36:00.000+01:00

The 2nd International Conference Earthquake Engineering and Disaster Mitigation 2011
Shangri-La Hotel, Surabaya
19-20 July 2011

Umroh 20-28 March 2011

2011-04-02T06:02:00.001+01:00

Farros is the small boy who did his first umroh in 9 years
old. Very young comparing his mum.

Look at his pictures

my little boy

2011-03-05T15:29:00.000Z

You know who is he.
Yes, my boy, Farros. I am really proud of him.. he grows fast, really understanding person, care each other and lovely boy.
Since his little brother stays with us, his behave so good... he is playing with his brother, bring the little to have a bath and prayer together.

May Allah bless you always my little boy, my sunshine and my hearth.
Love you full

hi

2011-02-10T14:37:00.002Z

It has been a long time I didnt write any here.

just wanna say H E L L O

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011

2010-12-31T10:31:00.000Z

Happy New Year for Everybody.

Wish you very prosperous year and happy forever.

happy eid 2010

2010-09-12T10:57:00.002+01:00

Sure, it is a wonderful day, when u r with ur big family.

Love, care and happiness

Cindelaras

2010-06-05T13:05:00.000+01:00

Today at SDI Al Azhar 11, 5 production presents CINDELARAS. 2nd year students presented the javanese classical story.
Farros as one of the student also join the performance. Before he played in the performance, he was reading a Al Qur'an translation. He did well... :-)

I can read Al Qur'an now...

2010-05-23T12:35:00.000+01:00

Yesterday, Farros graduated from Iqra' and now he can read Al Qur'an. Alhamdulillah..

so happy

2010-05-05T05:55:00.000+01:00

Why?
Nothing special, but I am happy with Farros besides me, playing around because he is in a holiday due to National Exams. It is quite busy, because he want to do what he want to do during the 3 days.
Today, he wants to play game all the time.. and ask me to do not disturb him... lol

I just ask him to take his lunch..... and have a rest, before he has a tired eyes.
Oh... love you much my beloved son... you are my sunshine, my happiness, my everything.

miss him much

2010-05-03T13:32:00.000+01:00

This morning, I sent him a text. I miss him much, coz I couldn't contact him during weekend.
After waiting an hour, I got a reply... wow, it is wonderful... only got a text, as I got a water during dry season. I am so happy... I read the text many times... until I remember all the world... lol.

He is out of town... He was in waiting room to go to Aceh, when he sent the text. He could be very busy or didn't want to reply my second text. Oh... so sad.
At least he told me where he is now... it makes me happy, and I don't need to send email to him and waiting his reply if I know he won't be able to open internet (?) or lazy to do it as he did when he was in here.
It is totally different with me, I coundn't life without check my emails or check my facebook or twitter or just post a small writing in my blog.

Oh... why I have to miss him any times, even I know that this feeling is not in the right place. I have to forget him as a lover, but of course I couldn't forget him as a colleague.
Just pray that he will be alright and can be back to Jakarta on Wednesday... and sure come to Surabaya soon.... so I can see his tenderly eyes, sweet smile and so polite behaviour.
Take good care of yourself, my dear... Allah will always help you.

hmm....

2010-04-27T16:12:00.001+01:00

Hmmm... its understandable, coz I have the samethings.
Don't worry, Allah will help us always... and always... anytime, anywhere.
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Perjuangan Jadi Single Parent

Situasi puncak dalam kehidupan yang berujung kebahagiaan menjadi dambaan setiap insan. Namun, sebaliknya, ketika dalam situasi paling rendah, yang berwujud dalam rupa-rupa kesedihan dan musibah menerpa, tak banyak yang mampu menyikapinya dengan tegar dan sabar. Maka, tidak jarang, keputusasaan yang berakhir duka (sebut saja seperti bunuh diri) seringkali ditempuh oleh mereka yang tak tahan memikul beban nasib tersebut.

Padahal, sebagai manusia berakal, mestinya sadar diri bahwa bahagia, sedih, senang, adalah bumbu-bumbu kehidupan yang datang silih berganti. Lalu, mengapa banyak di antara kita enggan menikmati situasi hidup serba-kesulitan?

Buku ini, memberikan teladan mulia untuk dijadikan refleksi bersama, yang di dalamnya, berisi uraian-uraian pengalaman hidup penuh terjal yang dialami seorang ibu rumah tangga, yang tak lain adalah penulis buku ini sendiri, Emmy Kuswandari.

Dari segi penulisan alur cerita, mungkin tidak ada kesulitan menyemai kata demi kata, apalagi Emmy adalah seorang wartawan di salah satu koran ternama di ibu kota, yang sudah pasti sangat gampang ia menulis pengalaman-pengalaman pribadinya itu. Tetapi, dari aspek lain, penulisan kisah-kisah penuh haru di buku setebal 184 halaman ini sungguh butuh keberanian dalam mengungkapkan setiap detik hembusan napas kesedihan yang ia alami. Apa gerangan?

Emmy bercerita tentang suka-duka menjadi orang tua tunggal, atau yang biasa disebut single parent. Bagaimana tidak, dalam diri Emmy, tatkala hati dan pikiran masih dirundung kemarahan, kesedihan, dan kekalutan, di saat yang sama juga harus menyiapkan diri untuk tegak berdiri dan melanjutkan kehidupan. Pada titik inilah batin Emmy terus merintih.

''Saya tahu, dilema ini tidak mudah dilalui siapa pun yang menjadi orang tua tunggal, entah dia laki-laki atau perempuan. Tak sedikit yang terpuruk dan enggan untuk bangkit lagi. Tapi mentari harus terbit lagi bukan untuk menggantikan pekat malam? Saya sadar, pasti ada ketakutan menghadapi masalah finansial, kebutuhan komunikasi, siapa yang akan membantu mengasuh anak, bagaimana mengatur waktu dan bertumpuk ketakutan lain terhadap peran baru lain. Tetapi persoalan akan sedikit lain, bila memang sejak awal seseorang berniat untuk menjadi orang tua tunggal'' (hlm. 13-14).

Dari sana, dapatlah dimengerti betapa kuatnya kondisi psikologis Emmy dalam menanggung semua derita batin akibat perpisahan secara sepihak oleh suaminya, yang menurut pengakuan Emmy, ia (suaminya) sedang melancong ke negeri unta. Dan waktu itu, ternyata sudah ada janin dalam rahim Emmy.

Hal itu membuat Emmy berada dalam situasi serbabingung dan bimbang; antara ''menggugurkan'' dan mempertahankan kandungannya. Namun Emmy rupanya memilih jalan yang benar. Ia mempertahankan bayinya lahir ke dunia, walau risikonya harus mengurus semua keperluannya dari sejak hamil hingga melahirkan. Anak itu oleh Emmy diberi nama Benaeng Ulunati Bhumy Taruwara.

Bhumy terus tumbuh kian dewasa. Ia menampakkan kepekaannya dengan banyak bertanya hal-hal yang ada di sekitarnya, dan bahkan di luar pengetahuan atau inderanya. Dan salah satu pertanyaannya kepada Emmy, yaitu tentang siapa dan di manakah ayahnya? Emmy tersentak kaget. Sebab Bhumy pertama kali menanyakan perihal ayahnya itu ketika masih berumur dua tahun. Di usia itu, menurut Emmy, jauh meleset dari prediksinya, yang diperkirakan putra mungilnya itu bakal bertanya tentang ayahnya di usia sekolah.

Bagaimana Emmy mampu menjelaskannya? Emmy sadar, anaknya harus tahu persoalan yang sebenarnya, siapa dan di mana ayahnya. Tetapi apakah di usia dua tahun adalah waktu yang tepat bagi Bhumy untuk tahu semuanya? Sebelum waktunya tiba, Emmy berusaha memalingkan perhatian Bhumy ke persoalan-persoalan lain.

Tetapi seiring berjalannya waktu, ketika Bhumy beranjak usia empat tahun, ia kembali bertanya soal ayahnya dengan sedikit atraktif, berbeda dengan pertanyaaan-pertanyaan sebelumnya. Bhumy tiba-tiba melipat tangan di depan dada. Dia berdoa: ''Ya Tuhan, buatkan ayah untuk aku ya. Yang bisa antar sekolah. Yang ganteng ya Tuhan. Cepat buatkan ya Tuhan. Satu saja untukku.'' Raut mukanya serius. Tapi usai berdoa, dia tersenyum ke arah saya (Emmy), lalu bertanya, ''Bunda, kapan ya ayah selesai dibuat Tuhan?'' (hlm. 65).

Karena itu, bukan main-main, buku ini merupakan kisah nyata dari segala problematika kehidupan Emmy bersama keluarganya. Lantas, mengapa Emmy berlapang dada dan seolah tidak merasa keberatan permasalahan keluarganya diketahui orang lain (pembaca)? Dan apa sebenarnya motif Emmy berkenan menerbitkan catatan-catatan pribadinya ini dalam bentuk buku?

Sudah pasti, bisa ditebak bahwa kemungkinan yang paling rasional, alasan Emmy menulis dan menerbitkan buku ini tidak lain setidaknya karena dua hal. Pertama, dalam rangka berbagi pengalaman dan sebagai pelajaran berharga bagi pembaca, bagaimana semestinya mendidik anak, terutama bagi mereka orang tua tunggal, baik laki-laki maupun perempuan. Sebab, boleh jadi apa yang menimpa Emmy, banyak pula dijumpai di sekitar kita.

Kedua, Emmy berharap, dengan diterbitkannya catatan-catatan pribadinya itu, dapat dibaca oleh anaknya kelak, bila sudah tumbuh dewasa. Jadi, Emmy menjawab semua kegelisahan anaknya tentang siapa dan di mana ayahnya itu lewat catatan-catatan yang diterbitkan dalam buku ini. Walaupun sebenarnya, Emmy pasti sadar, risiko menerbitkan buku sangatlah besar, yaitu persoalan rumah tangga Emmy, yang semestinya tak perlu diekspose, karena sangat privasi, kini terkuak dan diketahui banyak orang.

Namun, mutiara hikmah dari terbitnya buku ini adalah perjuangan seorang perempuan menghidupi keluarganya. Emmy tidak putus semangat membesarkan Bhumy, meski harus bersusah payah, membanting tulang. Rasa-rasanya, inilah potret riil perempuan tangguh di zaman modern sekarang ini. (*)

*) Lailiyatis Sa'adah, Pustakawan AIDA di Jember, dan guru PAUD di UIN Sunan Kalijaga Jogjakarta

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Judul Buku: Tuhan, Buatkan Ayah untuk Aku, Ya...

Penulis: Emmy Kuswandari

Penerbit : Kanisius Jogjakarta

Cetakan : I, Maret 2010

Tebal : 184 halaman

tepar

2010-04-26T11:30:00.000+01:00

Hi..
Do you know about 'tepar'? Hmmm... some of you know the meaning... yes you are right. It means KO, not well........
Since Saturday, I am on the bed, restfull to get well soon. But today, I am still not ok, still need more time to have a rest. Hope tomorrow I will start the day with new spirit.

Actually, I am waiting an email... but until this time I don't get any email from......... hmmm.. what he was doing a day at his office? or doing survey or meeting out? sure... he is not the person that very maniac with internet.... just using when he wants or have spare time..... Yes, I know... so don't expect him too much.
Enjoy your life... before you don'y have any life, dear.

Bukan Cinta Manusia Biasa

2010-04-22T01:42:00.001+01:00

Bukan Cinta Manusia Biasa ^^^^^^ Dewa 19

ku tetap mencintaimu masih
meski kau tak cinta aku
ku tetap merindukan
meski kau tak pernah merasa
sedikit pun untuk merindukan aku

reff:
cintaku ini bukan cinta milik manusia biasa
cintaku ini cinta sejati yang paling sejati

ku tetap memaafkan salahmu
meski kau terus sakiti
ku tetap menerima
seribu kata maaf
yang selalu kau ucapkan
dari bibirmu yang manis

repeat reff

ku tetap mencintaimu masih
meski kau tak cinta aku
ku tetap merindukan
meski kau tak pernah merasa sedikitpun
untuk merindukan diriku
merindukan aku

repeat reff [2x]

wow... complicated feeling

2010-04-21T12:24:00.001+01:00

Someone is falling in love with me.... but I am falling in love with other person. And the other person has his own family,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, so what should I do?...............

For my previous experience, it is so exhausted too if I have a relationship but I don't feel any love to him.
But if I want to the person who I love... I will hurt other woman and destroy his family. Sure, I don't want to do the bad thing to others... never.....

My Allah gives us the best way to full fill this short life to achieve the happy life in future.
Just wanna say I miss you so much love... please take good care of yourself, especially when you have to go out for survey.

miss him

2010-04-17T17:28:00.000+01:00

I thought I will make the ending of my novel. But... I don't know why, since this afternoon... I am missing him much. Even I read his text, email and see his pictures, I still miss him.

What should I do? I have to remove my feeling to him.. HAVE TO.. before I can hurt more and more..... You read my email, so I thought you understood what I told u.... and gave your respon.
Or should I told you in CLEAR sentence that I am falling in love with you?
But hows about HAVE TO forget him????
Oh.. it makes me exhausted feeling.... forget him... tell him.... forget him.... tell him.... and so on...

Ending

2010-04-15T16:36:00.000+01:00

Dear all,

I should make an ending of my novel, before the story goes to wrong way.
What should I do. I couldn't keep the feeling inside my heart, I should tell him whatever his responses, I will accept it. So I sent an email last Friday night. I know he will open the email on Monday, since he never open his email during weekend. Monday morning....... no email..... afternoon... no email.. :-(
I was so sad... but I was thinking that it was so difficult for him to understand my email and the meaning, since I don't write in clear (I was so afraid).... then after lunch on Tuesday I received his email... but I only had time to read the email before I left my office... full day workshop.
He said that he is not the person that can make cheer me up, but I am the person that should do by myself. With this condition, he said that I will have more spirit... hmmm. It is right, coz after I am falling in love with him, I always happy to do every things. I am more patient, very rarely angry with my beloved son, and very happy to improve my knowledge especially related with his field.. ihik.. :-).

But....I got feeling that he wants to tell me, "please don't expect to me, only can care and pray for you that you will have the best". Thanks to Allah that he remains me to always pray and remember Him in my life. I know I can not remove this feeling to you... but I will try to reduce it and pray that Allah wills give me someone that very love me and I love him too.

So this is the ending of my novel... after month and month just a bit word. Hope I can make a beter novel after collect all the contents.

Happy days forever for all my friends

Light Song from Armada

2010-04-13T14:53:00.001+01:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ALOOISMi9sk

Armada Band - Mau Dibawa Kemana

Semuanya telah kuberi
Dengan kesungguhan hati untukmu
Hanya untukmu

*
Tak perlu kau tanya lagi
Siapa pemilik hati ini
Kau tahu pasti dirimu

**
Tolong lihat aku
Dan jawab pertanyaanku

Reff:
Mau dibawa kemana hubungan kita
Jika kau terus menunda-nunda
Dan tak pernah menyatakan cinta
Mau dibawa kemana hubungan kita
Ku tak akan terus jalani
Tanpa ada ikatan pasti
Antara kau dan aku

Back to *, **, Reff

Back to **, Reff

Feeling blue, red, pink or orange, it is your choice

2010-04-10T00:03:00.000+01:00

Yes....

You can make your feeling as what you want. You can feel so blue, even you have anything in front of you that makes you happy. Or you can feel so happy, even so many difficulties in your face.

So be happy mum... you can do everything what you want include to get his attention and love (?) wkwkwkwk.
I don't think so!!!

Just be happy with all Allah gives to me, a lovely boy, a nice house and car, a full of work.... and don't forget you have someone, friends and family that love you. Lets see, you can count the old handsome guy, or a sexy London boy, or a naughty boy from elephant country. But they are not in your side.... yes, you are right.. but they are always here when you need them, even only from a phone, chat, text or email.

Alhamdulillah, ya Allah... please forgive me.

every night

2010-04-08T20:45:00.001+01:00

Hi,

Almost 3 days.. I wake up during midnight... so I only have 2-3 hours to sleep.
Hope I can talk to Him more close and close.... as I also have a feeling to close to him.
Ya Robbi... please help me.. You know the best way for me. Amien.

So sad...

2010-04-07T10:34:00.000+01:00

After he left the meeting....... I am feeling so sad...... so blue....... it seems that he brings my hearth away. I have to forget him........ forget his smile...... his tenderly eyes........ and forget to be with him always.
Could I do??????
Even he is around me, I am still feeling so sad, and I hope I don't have this feeling to him. But what can I said, Allah gives this lovely feeling to me. I have to say thanks to Him.
So frustrating..... I hope I can finish my project with him... but how comes? I couldn't think without him. His smile, the way he talks and looks at me.. so lovely...I am so thirsty of his love...............

Ya Allah... ya Robbi... please forgive me.... please give me a peace and happiness in my life .

Today

2010-04-07T02:46:00.000+01:00

Oh dear...

Even yesterday until 7.00pm, I met him... I still miss him much now. I hope he can come to my office soon.
Last night, you know.. I couldn't sleep properly, I slept early, coz it was a very tired day.... but then at 2.30am I awake.. Thanks to Allah that I can do my night prayer. I just hope I get my healthy back, give the best way for me and him.... and of course I pray for my parents, mbak Heng and my beloved son, Farros.
I tried to sleep again after the prayer.... but then OMG, someone called me....... I knew who was calling me... someone from different time.... Because his time was still at 10.00pm, so He thought he could call me anytimes... oh silly boy.
Anyway, back to my feeling this morning... even I couldn't sleep... but I am so happy now.... I will meet him again this morning. I just hope and always hope Allah gives me the best way.... for my life and Farros in this world and after.
Until this morning I know.. that I miss him so much............................

Wish for tomorrow

2010-04-05T17:47:00.000+01:00

What do you think that I wish for tomorrow?

I WISH you will know and understand my feeling when we meet. I know that it could be impossible but it is better to try than never do anything.

..................

Wish u here

2010-04-05T04:35:00.000+01:00

Dear...

Happy Monday for you... still sleeping during your bank holiday? Coz.. you don't need to go hurry. Just enjoy your time.

This morning, I wake up late... 5.30am... too late for Subuh prayer, but I did. Then I have to prepare my lovely son's stuff, and wake him up.
But... so sorry, we still missed the school's time, so I think he will got punishment. but I am sure he will be alright, since I always tell him that he has to face anythings up in his life.

I am feeling so lonely this morning, even I have so many things to do. Wish you here, and cheer me up with your jokes. Oh.. miss u so much.... hope u will text, email or phone me....... Please, do it fo me my love.

lazy holiday

2010-04-03T17:16:00.000+01:00

Its very exhausted holiday. I remembered when Easter holiday in UK.. we ate a lot of chocolate... Farros and I love Easter egg... especially when I got from friends and colleagues, its free... hehehe.

This morning, I received an email from a British friend and told me about our last Easter holiday. So lovely to remember all the memory when it was past.
We are always don't care when we are in the time... but we will miss the time when it was past.

Back to the holiday... I just stay home in this holiday.. we just have a small chocolate, it is not a special one, but we just brought last week in a supermarket. I have to clean and arrange the house coz we have just moved in this lovely house after a bit renovation.
After that... I was sleeping.... eating... and sleeping again.

my bones

2010-03-31T02:28:00.000+01:00

How many bones we have in our body?
Hmm... I don't remember it.... so what the point?

Just feeling that my bones are so hurt........ so exhausted.....
My friend said that I have to go for a rest, take everything easily and just be happy for everything in this life.

When feeling this blue... I just need my best friend to talk with...... where are you now???????? still sleeping.. ops yes you are, it is still 2.30am in your time.
Have sweet dream of me... lol.

tired weekend

2010-03-21T15:37:00.000Z

My dear,

I am very tired... I don't have fruitful weekend, but I did something which useful. What is it? Yes, you are right, as I mention few days ago, my home is ready to use... so these Saturday and Sunday I brought all my stuff to home. It is very exhausted work, since I did everything by myself. Packing, driving, cleaning the unpacking.... I hope you are here and help me....

But don't worry, I have my angel who gives support and makes me all the time. I think my angel is also very tired, thus he has his snoring now and I guess I will follow him.
So have sweet dream for you and talk to you tomorrow.

Missing you so much.........

DEWA 19 DEALOVA LYRICS

2010-03-15T15:55:00.000Z

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah
dalam tidur mu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
kerana langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
kerana hati telah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau ahu bahwa ku
selalu memujamu
tanpa mu sepinya waktu
merantai hati
bayangmu.....seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rindu ku pada mu
seperti udara yang ku hela
kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yang bisa
membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa
hilang..... dan sepi

mine?? yours??

2010-03-15T01:21:00.001Z

Hi,

Hope you have fruitful weekend with your beloved son.

Do you know, when I told my friend about my feeling to you, he said that I have to forget it. He ask me that I have to be a professional person in work, don't put my feeling that can affect my work with you.

Hmm... A good suggestion, but what can I said, that this feeling so strong and push me to be always closed to you.
I wanna be a part of your life, sharing this joy and painful life with you, support each other, since we have a same subject and interest in our work and so on.

I know... I don't want to disturb your family, if you have... since I don't know that you are single or married. I just know that you have 11 years old boy. But it doesn't mean that you are not single??? right????

Just ask Allah SWT to gives the best for our life in this world and after....

Missing you so much........

Love,
Your secret admirer

lonely night

2010-03-13T16:36:00.002Z

...............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......................
Stay alone, play alone, think alone, everything I have to do by myself.
Where r u?????...................................................................
...............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......................

Happy Again........

2010-03-12T14:21:00.003Z

Dear Friends,

Finally, I received a text from him this morning, it was giving me a smile in my face after feeling so blue.
I couldn't restrain my heart to get closer to him, so.. I called him with 'a technical' question, about the proposal. Wow... so wonderful... after almost 2 weeks, just received his texts and emails, I hear his voice again.
We talk.. talk.. with all the possibility of OUR research, until I have to meet my students... oh, silly student, why they are disturbing me?
After we got a conclusion, he promised me to find out the literature and will talk to me again........ oh.. he said AGAIN???? Oh.. he turn on me! lol

Then I was busy with all Lecturer's certification, filling QS forms and have a afternoon class. AND you know... during my class I received his texts again... a long texts, and I can hold down my heart to talk to him.
So I call him again.... almost an hour I talks to hims, with the previous idea for our research proposal. Then.....we have a NEW conclusion, that we will try to do a research about DAMPER.

Do you know damper? it is a equipment that can reduce the vibration usually during earthquake. I think I also need a damper to reduce a hard bit in my heart........ hehehe...

So, I can sing a lovely song again... lalalala..lilili...

Breaking Heart???

2010-03-12T00:58:00.003Z

Hi all,

I am feeling blue this morning... Just got feeling, that he doesn't like me and try to make a distance with me.
You break my heart.

Days and days... I always think about you, feeling happy when I remember you, remember the way you look and talk to me.... everything is so perfect.

But now...... I am not sure..................................................................................................... so sad.................. so blueeeeee...............................
Should I tell you my feeling???

The way you look at me

2010-03-08T13:59:00.002Z

The way you look at me with your tenderly eyes... I can't resist your charm. I am falling in love with you.

I am so happy that I get this feeling again.. after long--long time ago. Almost 8 years, I never feel this lovely feeling. You came in front of me, then... everything is changing, even I never know your feeling. I just hope that you have the same feeling. But I couldn't ask you to fall in love with me... coz this feeling from Him. Allah knows the best for us.

Thanks to Allah, Who send you to me and make me so happy. Hope you understand 'this feeling'.......

today, 6 march 2010

2010-03-06T16:29:00.005Z

This weekend, farros is playing at his friend house, Aldo. Usually when i pick him up, he will folow me. But 2nite, oh God, he asked me 2 give a permition 4 him 2 stay over. Oh., he is big enough now. I miss my baby

mobile phone

2010-02-26T16:48:00.002Z

This is the 1st time I use my mobile 2 send a post in my blog. The bip in this phone makes me very happy, especially when I got texts from him. Read his name my hearth will run fastly, moreover, when i read d text. Him, him and him r always in my mids.

missing u

2010-02-20T14:39:00.003Z

I miss you so much... especially when I read your papers, texts, and emails.
I proud of you.. you have done many things in your life.
How you can do everything which only 4 years differences between us? You have h-Index 3 with 23 citations, but I only have h-Index 1 and only 7 citations.
Hope I can follow you and make you proud on me.

I have a bit disappointed news. Two of my proposal had not received the grants. So sad... because I think I will get 1 this year, then I will send a proposal for next year.
Please help me to get this dream...........

So what are you doing during this weekend? dinner out, watching movie, or just playing computer as usual?
Just wanna say... have a lovely weekend and talk to you Monday.
Take care......

jika aku jatuh cinta

2010-02-19T17:01:00.001Z

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada-Mu, agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintai-Mu.

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku pada-Mu

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu, agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta semu.

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling pada hati-Mu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu, rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku merindukan syurga-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih-Mu, janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah Engaku mengetahui bahwa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada-Mu, telah berjumpa pada taat pada-Mu, telah bersatu dalam dakwah pada-MU, telah berpadu dalam membela syariat-Mu. Kokohkanlah ya Allah ikatannya. Kekalkanlah cintanya. Tunjukilah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan nur-Mu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengna limpahan keimanan kepada-Mu dan keindahan bertawakal di jalan-Mu. (Yesi Elsandra, special untuk yang saling mencintai karena-Nya)

Andai...

2010-02-19T15:48:00.004Z

Ya Allah terima kasih telah memberikan hambaMu yang hina ini menerima begitu besar anugerah, merasakan perasaan yang sudah lama tidak pernah terasakan lagi.

Begitu besar nikmat ini, Ya Allah, alhamdulillah. Semoga ini tidak hanya dalam angan-angan atau perasaan, tetapi nikmat yang benar2 Engkau kirim kepada hambaMu ini.

Ya Allah sempurnakanlah nikmat ini menjadi lebih barokah di jalanMu, bagi kebaikan hamba dan keluarga hamba. Dia begitu mempesona dengan teguhnya mengikuti jalan Islam, sholat...

When I see his tender lovely eyes, my heart bit so hard. For the first time when I see him in front of me. First day was a long meeting, that made me know him, look at him, talk to him.
Then he came again two weeks ago, I missed him so much, when I see him, I always see his passion eyes, and my heart bit.. bit... bit so fast, again and again because he talked to me and looked at me. It was a short time... I still missed him much when he left me......... then I keep text and email him to reduce this feeling.
Ya Allah please forgive me if I do wrong...... No, I think this feeling from Him, I never ask to get this feeling.
He came again for two days... a long wonderful day. I was very tired in my body, but my feeling was very very happy. I could close my body to him, then talking and enjoy his tender lovely eyes looking at me. But I never touch him, just 5 cm left behind me and him. Oh..I was really happy.
Then we talked about our interested matter... earthquake, seismic, non engineering building,... yes a heavy topic for people... but we enjoyed the conversation. I told him about what I had done and what I want to do. He also told me about what he done previously about what I have done... thus we can share each other.
Today we sent texts and email many time.. talking about Farros and also for join research. Hehehe.. yes you are right, I could tell him my feeling, but I told him about my situation, hope he understand what I said implicitly.
I don't want to loss him, but I don't want to push him.... so I just pretend that everything is just a multi relationship in our field... and not in our love life.

Hope I can get an idea, how to make him closer and closer to me. Please friends help me, tell him about my feeling.
Ya Allah, please protect and forgive me.

Amien... alhamdulillah.

Happy Birthday

2010-02-12T10:39:00.002Z

1st is my birthday, than 2nd is Farros's birthday. It was wonderful. We have dinner out site then in the morning, we have SELAMATAN at my work. People pray for me and farros. Just hope that Allah gives the healthfulness for me, and this thyroid is gone away........................
amien

Relieve

2010-01-20T13:10:00.002Z

I am feeling relax now, after bringing my students to do their oral exam. Usually I don’t really bother with their exams, but today I have to think more... It is not as easy as I think....

But I am quite happy with their results, since they have to struggle by themself, since I don’t have much time to them. Thanks for your understanding ..... my students. Hope you achieve ur dream in real world soon. Be proud of yourself and please remember you still have ur mum and dad in ITS, so please feel free to come and talk about anything.

Tired

2009-10-02T00:03:00.002+01:00

All,

Wanna say 'Happy Eid, May Allah bless You all'.

After celebrating the Eid for a week, I have to catch up all my duty for submitting. I feel that when I am back from holiday, I just get a bulky duty that I left them during my away. SO what the point of a holiday? Any idea?
I haven't gotten any assistant in my house, so have to do everything by myself; cooking, cleaning, laundry, looking after a kid etc.

Anyway, thank to Allah that I still can manage everything till this time. Hope my kid doesn't complain it and understand what his mum doing. Love you Farros.

Lambert Hall

2009-09-16T22:46:00.002+01:00

Remember when I was in Lambert Hall during my Master program. I never contact with them.. so where is everybody?
Miss u all.
Anyway, could you catch up me?

What do u want to do?

2009-09-15T18:58:00.003+01:00

What do you want to do when you couldn't sleep?

1. Playing games
2. Browsing
3. Chatting with friends
4. Watching naughty movie
5. Or just counting a sheep on your head?

ITS UP YO YOU....
Good night everybody

Ramadhan

2009-09-06T01:44:00.001+01:00

Alhamdulillah, we are fasting for half month already.... but I never write anything in this blog, sorry. It has been very busy all the time, at work, look after Farros and also take care of home alone without any helper.

just wanna say that...................... miss you all

Taiwan and Indonesia Airport

2009-08-05T01:11:00.003+01:00

I went to Taiwan last week for the first time. The airport is not big enough comparing to Singapore Airport, but it is very clean. The facilities is very good, we can get a clean toilet, trolley any where, and the airport price is as same as the price outside.

Indonesia Airport, it makes me sad, said Juanda International Airport, you can get a difficulty just to find a trolley. When I asked the person in charge, she said 'so sorry, they don't have any trolley and if I want it, I should find it outside the airport!! It is very silly, as they said the airport is an International airport. I just thought if someone from abroad finds the situation, it will make 'a bad mark' for Indonesia. Hope everybody in Indonesia understand about the situation, so they do the best for Indonesia not for they need (just for 10 thousand rupiahs?)

"A sadness feelling 4 my country"

Going to Pacet

2009-04-02T01:33:00.004+01:00

Last weekend, Farros and I went to a hotel in Pacet. We left Surabaya @11.00am. I need 1.5 hours to drive to get the hotel. It was nice hotel. We can walk around the hotel to see the good natural picture, swimming, walking. There is a playing ground, but it is too small for Farros age.

Farros enjoy his staying there.. look at the pictures...

Oh...flood.....

2009-01-09T01:56:00.000Z

Yesterday, it was a very bad day. Heavy rain all day.... till my house got flood.
It is very stressfull. You have to keep your stuf on the table, so you can reduce the stress because you have to clean the hause and get damage of your stuff.

May Allah help me, and the flood is away from home all the time

In a day

2008-11-06T03:35:00.002Z

In a day...

Sometimes you feel nice,
Sometimes you feel bore,
or sometimes you feel sad...

That is the day... any kind of your feeling...
the day will be passed and you will face of the new day tomorrow!

So enjoy your day...
any feeling will javascript:void(0)
Publish Postmake you to be a great person as great as your day!

Yummy

2008-09-16T06:09:00.003+01:00

Farros asks me to cook the cake. I love to do that, but the problem I have not fixed my cooker since I came back from UK.
Very lazy? Yes!!! I want to ask someone to fix the cooker for me so I can cook the delicious cake for my beloved son. The cooker I got from UK, so the utility system is different, even I bought the cooker with LPG system. Anyone can help me?

30 days of Ramadan

2008-09-04T02:19:00.003+01:00

Ramadan Dua: DAY 1
ALLAH, on this day make my fasts the fasts of those who fast (sincerely), and my standing up in prayer of those who stand up in prayer (obediently), awaken me in it from the sleep of the heedless, and forgive me my sins , O God of the worlds, and forgive me, O one who forgives the sinners.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 2
ALLAH, on this day, take me closer towards Your pleasure, keep me away from Your anger and punishment, grant me the opportunity to recite Your verses (of the Qur'an), by Your mercy, O the most Merciful.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 3
ALLAH, on this day, grant me wisdom and awareness, keep me away from foolishness and pretension, grant me a share in every blessing You send down, by You generosity, O the most Generous.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 4
ALLAH, on this day, strengthen me in carrying out Your commands, let me taste the sweetness of Your remembrance, grant me, through Your graciousness, that I give thanks to You. Protect me, with Your protection and cover, O the most discerning of those who see.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 5
ALLAH, on this day, place me among those who seek forgiveness. Place me among Your righteous and obedient servants, and place me among Your close friends, by Your kindness, O the most Merciful.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 6
ALLAH, on this day, do not let me abase myself by incurring Your disobedience, and do not strike me with the whip of Your punishment, keep me away from the causes of Your anger, by and Your power, O the ultimate wish of those who desire.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 7
ALLAH, on this day, help me with its fasts and prayers, and keep me away from mistakes and sins of the day, grant me that I remember You continuously through the day, by Your assistance, O the Guide of those who stray.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 8
ALLAH, on this day, let me have mercy on the orphans, and feed [the hungry], and spread peace, and keep company with the noble-minded, O the shelter of the hopeful.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 9
ALLAH, on this day, grant me a share from Your mercy which is wide, guide me towards Your shining proofs, lead me to Your all encompassing pleasure, by Your love, O the hope of the desirous.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 10
ALLAH, on this day, make me, among those who rely on You, from those who You consider successful, and place me among those who are near to you, by Your favor, O goal of the seekers.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 11
ALLAH, on this day, make me love goodness, and dislike corruption and disobedience, bar me from anger and the fire [of Hell], by Your help, O the helper of those who seek help

Ramadan Dua: DAY 12
ALLAH, on this day, beautify me with covering and chastity, cover me with the clothes of contentment and chastity, let me adhere to justice and fairness, and keep me safe from all that I fear, by Your protection, O the protector of the frightened.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 13
ALLAH, on this day, purify me from un-cleanliness and dirt, make me patient over events that are decreed, grant me the ability to be pious, and keep company with the good, by Your help, O the beloved of the destitute.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 14
ALLAH, on this day, do not condemn me for slips, make me decrease mistakes and errors, do not make me a target for afflictions and troubles, by Your honor, O the honor of the Muslims.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 15
AllAH, please forgive me

Ramadan Dua: DAY 16
ALLAH, on this day, grant me compatibility with the good, keep me away from patching up with the evil, lead me in it, by Your mercy, to the permanent abode, by Your God ship, O the God of the worlds.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 17
ALLAH, on this day, guide me towards righteous actions, fulfill my needs and hopes, O One who does not need explanations nor questions, O One who knows what is in the chests of the (people of the) world. Bless Muhammad and his family, the Pure.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 18
ALLAH, on this day, make me love goodness, and dislike corruption and disobedience, bar me from anger and the fire [of Hell], by Your help, O the helper of those who seek help.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 19
ALLAH, on this day, multiply for me its blessings, and ease my path towards its bounties, do not deprive me of the acceptance of its good deeds, O the Guide towards the clear truth.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 20
ALLAH, on this day, open for me the doors of the heavens, and lock the doors of Hell from me, help me to recite the Qur'an, O the One who sends down tranquility into the hearts of believers.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 21
ALLAH, on this day, show me the way to win Your pleasure, do not let Shaytan have a means over me, make Paradise an abode and a resting place for me, O the One who fulfills the requests of the needy.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 22
ALLAH, on this day, open for me the doors of Your Grace, send down on me its blessings, help me towards the causes of Your mercy, and give me a place in the comforts of Paradise, O the one who answers the call of the distressed.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 23
ALLAH, on this day, wash away my sins, purify me from all flaws, examine my heart with (for) the piety of the hearts, O One who overlooks the shortcomings of the sinners.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 24
ALLAH, on this day, I ask You for what pleases You, and I seek refuge in You from what displeases You, I ask You to grant me the opportunity to obey You and not disobey You, O One who is generous with those who ask

Ramadan Dua: DAY 25
ALLAH, on this day, make me among those who love Your friends, and hate Your enemies, following the way of Your last Prophet, O the Guardian of the hearts of the Prophets.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 26
ALLAH, on this day, make my efforts worthy of appreciation, and my sins forgiven, my deeds accepted, my flaws concealed, O the best of those who hear.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 27
ALLAH, on this day, bestow on me the blessings of Laylatul Qadr, change my affairs from (being) difficult to (being) easy, accept my apologies, and decrease for me [my] sins and burdens, O the Compassionate with His righteous servants.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 28
ALLAH, on this day, grant me a share in its nawafil (recommended prayers), honor me by attending to my problems, make closer the means to approach You, from all the means, O One who is not preoccupied by the requests of the beseechers.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 29
O ALLAH, on this day, cover me with Your mercy, grant me in it success and protection, purify my heart from the darkness of false accusations, O the Merciful to His believing servants.

Ramadan Dua: DAY 30
O ALLAH, on this day, make my fasts worthy of appreciation and acceptance, according to what pleases You, and pleases the Messenger, the branches being strengthened by the roots, for the sake of our leader, Muhammad, and his purified family. Praise be to ALLAH, the Lord of the worlds.

Why so hot here???

2008-09-02T08:12:00.002+01:00

I don't know what happen with my body. Almost everyday I feel very hot, even I stay in a room with Air Conditioner. And the bad thing, when I feel the weather is hot, I will get headache. One of my friend said that my headache is a very close friend of me, because she will be around me anytimes, especially in hot condition.
So sad.... I try to do exercise routinely, I go swimming and jogging, but why 'my close friend' is still around me?? any idea how to remove the headache forever??? Don't said that I have to remode my HEAD lol.

Ramadhan

2008-08-29T11:24:00.005+01:00

Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان, Ramaḍān) is a Muslim religious observance that takes place during the ninth month of the Islamic calendar, believed to be the month in which the Qur'an began to be revealed. It is the Islamic month of fasting, in which Muslims don't eat or drink anything from sunrise until sunset. Fasting is meant to teach the person patience and humility. Many scholars are of the view that competing in sports or exercise should be refrained during the daylight hours since it causes one to be more thirsty, and thus, less patient. Most people who keep fasts choose to exercise in the night after the fasts are broken [Wikipedia].

HAPPY RAMADHAN, MAY ALLAH GIVES US STRENGTH TO FULL FILL THIS HOLY MONTHS WITH FASTING

His hood

2008-08-28T01:23:00.003+01:00

Who is he? Yes, you are right. He asked his mum to take his picture when he was hiding in his spiderman hood. What's the meaning? I don't know... coz when I asked him, why did you hide your head? He didn't give me the answer, just playing!
:-)

Sport day

2008-08-26T02:59:00.003+01:00

As I told you before, Farros starts his primary school in 11th Al-Azhar Primary School, Surabaya. He loves to study there especially in Sport day. Farros likes sport, because it makes him happy and enjoy to move around with running.
This morning, he is so happy because he got his school sport costum, so he doesn't need to wear free shirt in the sport day.
Common Farros..... do your exercise and be a good football player as your dream of.

Soekarno Hatta Airport

2008-08-21T12:28:00.004+01:00

I am in Jakarta, Soekarno Hatta Airport, waiting my flight. It is very boring, cos I have to wait 4 hours.
It was my mistake, because I didn't check carefully which flight I got from my office. I thought the person who arranged my journey known what time I had to go back to Surabaya. Anyway Thanks to Allah that I could do my duty without any problems.

Sorry the pictures shown is when I was in a train from Manchester airport to Piccadilly. So don't think that Indonesia has a such train from airport, makes us easily to go to Airport. :)

Freedom

2008-08-19T02:54:00.004+01:00

August 17th is Indonesian Freedom day. So, what Farros was doing during the day? Ops... he said I am free mum from any grasses in our house. :)

Drawing Competition

2008-08-14T02:50:00.008+01:00

We are celebrating our freedom of 63th years. Farros has many kinds of playings to celebrate. Last Saturday, He followed a drawing competition in Permata Bank. He wasn't to be a winner, so he complained, He said my drawing is very wonderful, so I should be get a trophy :). I only could say that YOU ARE ALWAYS TO BE A WINNER for Mum, then he was so happy when I gave a present for him.
Yesterday, he was playing 'water bomb' and sprint running with bringing a flag. He said he got number 1. :)

Watching SEAL

2008-08-13T03:40:00.003+01:00

Last weekend, we watch a sea animal performance. Farros love it at the beginning, but then he said.... bore mum.
Anyway... he was enjoy, and saw many kinds of sea animals.

A Famous Football Player

2008-08-12T01:35:00.001+01:00

Yes, Farros wants to be a football player, but don't forget to put 'famous', because he doesn't want to be only a football player, but he wants to be a famous football player.
Look his pictures... he is ready to play football at home. Did he has a football team? No....
He wants to play with his mum, otherwise he will cry when mum doesn't want to.

From a 'FRIEND'

2008-08-06T01:52:00.001+01:00

My Friend
You Are My Friend.......
Regardless Of Skin Colour....
Regardless Of Size......

I Love You For Who You Are.....
Even Though We Don't See Each Other
As Often As We'd Like....
I Still Consider You As My Sweetheart And Lover......

You Will Always Carry A Special Place In My Heart.....
We Can Talk About Anything, And We Do.....

If You Are Ever In A Bind, You Can Count On Me.....
Wherever You Are In This World.....
I Will Always Be By Your Side.....
If You Need Support, You Can Count On Me....
You Call, And I Will Be There.....
And u know this is true....

Moving to a green house

2008-08-01T03:36:00.005+01:00

Almost 2 weeks Farros and I stay in our house. Farros calls green house. Don't think that 'real green house', that is only a name, because the hause has green colour :).
We are very happy in the house. Farros enjoys playing outsite with his new friends. You know the house is in front of A Mosque, so everytime we are at home, we hear remainder to pray 5 times.
Also every late afternoon, before Magrib pray time, children learn how to read Al Qur'an.

May Allah bless and protect us with our choosen way.

B'day Party

2008-07-19T22:47:00.002+01:00

Farros got two birthday party invitations from his friends. So we was busy to find some gifts. Farros wanna give toys, and I want to give a simple present and usable.
Finally, we found two back packs with cartoon character on them.

First party was yesterday, Farros was enjoy it and when they had game, he followed and to be a winner, and got a present!! congratulation my son.

You know you are big boy now.... when I look at you, I remember when you born and how mum had to struggle as a single parent, giving you all attention, care and love.
Mummy love you, be sholeh boy, ok!

New School

2008-07-17T13:59:00.004+01:00

This week is a commencing week for Farros. He starts his year 1 at Primary School Al Azhar 11, Surabaya.
He enjoys his school and has new friends and teachers.

The problem is to arrange my time. I have to go to office in Farros's time because I don't have time to go back home after taking Farros to school.
Also I have to pick Farros in his time, while sometimes I am still busy with my work.

Just hope that Allah gives me strength and healthy so I can do the best for my beloved son, Farros.

Exercise?

2008-07-01T23:31:00.005+01:00

Farros loves playing go around, that makes his body always do exercise. He moves in corner to other corner with running, stop doing something with your hand, then moving again.
That's totally different when you see me. Almost all the time I sit in my chair, thinking how to solve problems or how to manage the work in my laboratory or in IO. I spend my spare time/weekend for sleeping.
I want to do exercise routinely, wish my headache has gone. Actually I like swimming, but I couldn't swim. Could you teach me??? :-)

Dongklak dancing

2008-06-29T01:22:00.004+01:00

Yes, Farros finished his 'TK-B' and had farewall party last week. Look.. he was wearing an Indonesian traditional and did a performance. He did a 'dongklak' dancing with his 7 other friends. He loves dancing and enjoy to do it in front of people. I was surprise, because previously he didn't want to do 'drum band' performance.

Farros, you aren't a baby anymore.... You look independent now. May Allah bless you.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

2008-06-15T00:01:00.004+01:00

when the winter comes to Indonesia? it is very hot here!

Push my self

2008-06-01T04:28:00.000+01:00

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short hair

2008-05-24T20:33:00.002+01:00

Today.. after I asked him many times, finally, we went to a salon to cut his hair.
Now.. he looks very handsome... and a bit older.
You want to see his face... yup, after I download the pictures, I will upload them.

Have a nice and wonderful weekend.
Send my greeting to everybody around you.

Long hair

2008-05-18T08:32:00.002+01:00

Can you imagine, when farros doesn't want to cut his hair?
what do u think? just imagine his hair is longer than in this picture. :)
what do you think? is he more handsome?

Air Polution

2008-05-10T10:49:00.003+01:00

When will I get this kind of flower in here? We have spring all the time!
My friend took my picture at a park in Cheetham Hill, Manchester, UK.
Not only about flower, but also the air. Manchester is a big city, but they have a clear air compare to the air in Surabaya, Indonesia. Why?
I don't understand the reason, don't you?

T I R E D

2008-05-07T22:45:00.003+01:00

The definitions of TIRED as adj are:
1. a. Exhausted of strength or energy; fatigued.
b. Impatient; bored: tired of the same old sandwiches.
2. Overused; hackneyed: a tired joke.

What am I feeling? I think the 1.a. of the definition is my condition. I feel exhausted of strength or energy. My body is broken :)
Anyway, yesterday is a lovely day. I work hard as usual, give advices to the students and working in International Office ITS to plan new colaboration between ITS and other university in the world.

Hope today is a wonderful day so I can express my capabilities to make ITS better. :))

superwoman

2008-05-05T17:20:00.003+01:00

People said that I am a superwoman. Why? I don't know. I just try to do all my duty with my capability.
In this semester, I have to give 5 different class every week!
I also working in International team in my university and head of a laboratory.
I am also a single parent for a 6 years boy. So I have to manage my time to do all the duty from university and give attention to my beloved son.
May Allah give me strength to be a good mum for him and a good women for people.

It's the best day ever

2008-05-04T13:50:00.002+01:00

It is the best day ever......
It is the best day ever......

That is sponge bob's song that Farros loves to sing all the times.
Very interesting!!!
Can you sing along with Farros?

It is the best day ever.....
It is the best day ever.....

Holiday

2008-05-01T09:12:00.003+01:00

Today is holiday in Indonesia. I am feeling 'tired' after working for full day.
I have to manage my time not my time manages me, right?

Anyway, thanks to Allah gives me the strength again. I am ready to go to work tomorow.

love, mummy

NARUTO

2008-04-21T17:03:00.001+01:00

Yes, Farros loves NARUTO's story. He will call me, when the tele nearly the naruto program. He will enjoy the story when I am around, and will tell me 'what going on' the story. :)

Weekend

2008-04-19T16:34:00.001+01:00

HAPPY LOVELY WEEKEND

Mas Farros......
Thank you for the lovely weekend.
You know that Mum always need you. This weekend we spend at mum's office. I know you want to play at home, but you are happy following mum, when mum asked you.

When mum is writing this posting, you are sleeping. Your face is so peace. This afternoon you were laughing when you are playing football in mum's office. You are smile, laugh and cry when you watch 'pokemon movie'.

I believe you have a great heart.... please keep it and make happy your self and everybody around you.

(Structural Laboratory, Civil Eng., ITS)

Happy

2008-04-05T02:32:00.002+01:00

Alhamdulillah...

I am still life, after so many things happened.

hi everybody

2008-03-30T02:38:00.001+01:00

Hi there...

How are you, I should have a bit time to fill my blog. But it is difficult to get a time.

Just want to say, TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOUR SELF.

Happy Birthday Mum

2008-02-01T01:40:00.000Z

Today is your birthday.... Farros loves you and wish Almighty Allah blesses you and gives healthy.
A big kiss from me to YOU, My MUM...

Farros.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008

2008-01-01T08:26:00.000Z

Hi everybody......

Farros and mum want to say:
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008
May Allah protect us from the bad things and give us the wonderful day during this year and after.

Ohhh... Flooding in Bojonegoro

2007-12-30T14:03:00.000Z

I got message from my oldest sister, who stays in Bojonegoro, East Java. She said since yesterday (29 Dec 2007), Bojonegoro gets flood. The flood comes to my sister's house and all the public facilities. She can go anywhere to avoid the flood. So sad... I know how hard it is, because I ever got the same problem in 1986-1989 when I stayed in her house. At that time, I was lucky, we could go out to stay in the hotel, because the flood is not in all area, but now....:-(

The problem remain me to remember the power of Allah. I am only a very small 'thing' in the world. We still have a long life in the future. I have to make myself better. May Allah protect me from the lose life.

When I feel sad

2007-12-24T07:06:00.000Z

It is impossible to feel happy all the time, sometimes we feel down. I make my blog’s title to encourage me for always thankful to Allah and feeling happy.

I was crying, feeling lonely and weakly. I couldn’t tell my son about my feeling.
What causes? I think that what decision I made is not right. I couldn’t enjoy my life again, feel depress and couldn’t smile again. I said it is ok, but my heart is so hurt.
Maybe someone said why don’t you try to fix it? Or solve the problems?
Yes, I know. My best friend, who usually is there for me, is far away, in different continental. It is very expensive to make call from Indonesia. I can call anybody in the world very cheaply from UK, but now I have to think 1000000 times to call. L
What should I do? Do you think I have a brave to say the true from my heart?
May Allah protect me to make a right decision in my life.

Bali, a beautiful island

2007-12-21T10:49:00.001Z

We went to Bali in early December 2007, by plane from Surabaya to Denpasar. We arive in late afternoon, then we checked in to a hotel.
We went to shopping center after a rest. It is nice to see different things in here, compare to Surabaya.

The picture we took when we followed a tour a round Bali island. Farros with a big umbrella cheer up in a temple.

New School

2007-11-11T03:34:00.000Z

Farros starts his new school in Surabaya. After go around to get a right school, finally he chose a school near a food stall. Why? Cos he can go there after school.
He is a new star in the school, because he is handsome and the person who can speak English…
I am happy too… I don’t need to be worry again.

Hot weather

2007-10-24T12:35:00.000+01:00

Hot.. hot..hot...
Yes, we are in Surabaya. Pls don't compare to Manchester. You have to stay in a room with Air conditioner turn on to get cold. Look at Farros, he has a new style hair. I couldn't sleep with long hair mum, he said! so he can sleep with short hair now.

Graduation

2007-09-30T06:40:00.000+01:00

12 July 2007 at 12.15 GMT.
It is a wonderful day because it is my graduation time.
That day I could ask Farros to wear a formil cloth... he was so handsome as usual.
We were very happy.

Surabaya

2007-08-22T00:03:00.000+01:00

Yes,
We miss our lovely city, Surabaya, Indonesia. We will go there soon, this weekend. Oh... I couldn't wait until we arrive there. All family and yummy food are there.

Wonderful weekend

2007-04-16T09:12:00.000+01:00

We went to Stamford park this weekend. A big and beautiful park near my sweet home. Farros loves to feed the ducks, and asks to go there everyday. Today he asks me again to go there... but today is workingday. I have to go to work and to do my correction. So sorry my love, we go there next weekend, ok

Terima kasih (Thank You)

2007-04-05T18:10:00.000+01:00

Sorry for using Indonesian... because this file is copy file from a reply email to my friends

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Alhamdulillah, segala puji syukur kepada Allah SWT yang selalu melimpahkan nikmat dan barokahNya. Perjalanan panjang, penuh duka dan suka... untuk menyelesaikan study kali akhirnya berakhir sudah, walaupun masih perlu waktu lagi untuk melakukan koreksian.

Terima kasih juga kepada rekan-rekan semua baik yang di Manchester, Indonesia dan dimana saja yang telah membantu dengan do'a2nya, semoga Allah memberi kelancaran bagi yang sedang berjuang di sini. Terima kasih juga atas ucapan selamatnya, baik lewat milist, japri, telpon dan text. Dan yang terpenting lagi terima kasih kepada keluarga di 10 Haley dan juga mantan2 penghuninya yang telah banyak membantu saya selama ini, dan mbak2 yang sudah bersedia menjaga Farros terutama disaat2 libur sekolah. Kepada mbak Iref yang malam2 datang ke rumah untuk menambal gigi saya, terima kasih banyak.. alhamdulillah masih menempel kuat mbak. Terima kasih special kepada Mbak Ita, dan pak Andi yang telah menjaga Farros pada hari H. Tanpa bantuka rekan2 rasanya sulit bagi saya mencapai semua ini. Kepada Allah lah saya panjatkan do'a semoga balasan yang setimpal dariNya untuk rekan2 semua.

Ini sedikit cerita viva saya.
Pukul 9 pagi, teman saya sudah menjemput saya, biar saya nggak perlu naik bus di hari itu, alhamdulillah, saya nggak perlu susah2 untuk mencapai office. Viva saya pukul 1.15 pm, jadi saya masih punya banyak waktu untuk mempersiapkan ini itu. Maunya ketemu supervisor, ternyata... sang external examiner sudah ada di officenya, yach... nggak ada peluang lagi untuk bertanya.
Saya hanya bisa berdo'a agar semuanya bisa berjalan lancar dan sukses.
Sedikit terlambat dari jadwal yang telah dibuat, akhirnya saya masuk juga di ruang ujian. Disana ada supervisor, internal dan external examiners yang hari itu bagi saya kelihatan semua kelihatan menyeramkan.
Setelah presentasi selama kurang lebih 20 menit, external mulai bertanya pertanyaan general dan dasar2. Bergantian dengan internal examiner, sepertinya mereka 'bahagia' menanyakan banyak dasar2 ilmu civil yang saya ambil di undergrade dan yang hampir saya lupakan. Setelah puas bertanya, mereka beralih ke thesis page by page. Typing errors ketemu di sana sini. Dan yang paling susah mereka nggak suka gaya presentasi table dan diagram, yang saya ikuti dari permintaan supervisor.
Saya merasa sudah nggak punya tenaga lagi ketika mereka sampai di chapter terakhir. Hanya do'a dan do'a semoga saya bisa melewati semua ini. Begitu saya dibilang boleh keluar, langsung air mata berderai... begitu kuatir, bisakah saya lulus??? Detik-detik terasa begitu lambat. Untung ada temen2 yang menemani saat2 tersebut, terima kasih buat mbak Dyah, mbak Maya, mbak Rosmie dan suami. Akhirnya.... mereka memanggil juga, begitu masuk external examiner memberi selamat juga internal... alhamdulillah, semoga barokah ilmu yang saya pelajari. Air mata bahagia berderai lagi ketika menyampaikan berita ini ke temen2, dan terima kasih kepada fotografer dari Norway mengabadikan detik2 tersebut. :)

Demikian, kepanjangan ya ceritanya... maklum perasaan masih suka campur aduk... hehehe.

Wassalam,
Endah

Congratulations mbak Endah Wahyuni PhD

2007-04-05T17:55:00.000+01:00

Copy of emails from my friends when I got my degree. :)

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Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah, pada hari ini mbak Endah telah berhasil meraih gelar PhD.

Selamat berbahagia, juga untuk Faros dan seluruh anggota keluarga.
Semoga ilmu yang diperoleh menjadi ilmu yang bermanfaat.

Turut berbahagia :-)

Dyah

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Profisiat, mBak Endah.
Kami sekeluarga turut bangga dan bergembira.

Semoga ilmu yang diperoleh berguna bagi kemanusiaan!
(dan mohon doa bagi yang masih "terengah-engah" mengejar selesainya studi ini ... )

salam,
yanuar-ira-aruna

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Selamat ya mbak Endah atas keberhasilannya meraih gelar PhD. Semoga ilmunya dapat dimanfaatkan di bumi pertiwi tercinta. Selamat juga ya buat Faros.

Semoga semangat dan perjuangan mbak Endah dalam meraih ini semua dapat menjadi tauladan dan masukan yang sangat berharga bagi kami semua.

yang turut berbahagia,
rmd

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Selamat buat mbak Endah atas keberhasilannya memperoleh gelar PhD.
Semoga ilmunya bermanfaat.

Wassalam
tika-prapto-kayla

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Horre..horree kami berdua turut berbahagia.. satu lagi telah berhasil... yang lain menyusul segera...

Iwan+Eka..

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Alhamdulillah, Profisiat mbak Endah
Selamat.... ikut berbahagia

Salam
OJ, Heni, Cetta, n Ditto

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Alhamdulillah juga, kami turut berbahagia atas keberhasilan studi mbak Endah.
Akhirnya, perjuangan yang penuh dengan manis dan pahit, getirnya.. kayak nano-nano deh.. selesai sudah. Perjuangan hidup yang terasa begitu melelahkan berakhir dengan tangis kegembiraan. Alhamdulillah.
Semoga Allah SWT selalu memberikan rahmat dan karuniaNya pada mbak Endah sekeluarga. InshaAllah.

salam bahagia,
rosmie, eivind, alvin & dila

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Selamat buat mbak Endah dan keluarga.
Alhamdulillah, semoga menjadi hikmah dan barokah.
Selamat meneruskan episode-episode hidup berikutnya,
semoga selalu dalam cahaya Allah,
dan turut memantulkannya ke seluruh penjuru
Amiin.

Salam
-t&l-
tukang godain Farros

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Selamat .... selamat ..... selamat
Selamat untuk mbak Endah dan keluarga atas keberhasilan perjuangan selama ini.
Selamat kembali ke tanah air, berkumpul dengan keluarga dan berjuang lagi
dalam suasana yang lebih menyenangkan ...
Semoga sukses selalu.

Kalau mampir ke Bandung, kontak ya.
(Wida/081931308336)

Kami ikut berbahagia,

Widayani dan keluarga

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Turut berbahagia mendengar keberhasilan muslimah dari Indonesia
dengan gelar PhD nya. Selamat ya Mbak, semoga jejak langkah Mbak
bisa ditiru kami kami yang masih berjuang di sini...

Kapan nih acara makan-makan nya,.. hehhehe,..just kidding.

Wassalam
Rama, Ita, dan Raihan Bersaudara

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Selamat, Mba' Endah... sukses terus menanti...

Salam semuanya,
Faried/Eva/Wudda

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Subhanallah...Allahu akbar!!! Barakallah....
Aduh dari tadi pagi mo' telfon mbak ngak sempat. wah buka email udah malam
saking pingin tau kabare mbak. Lagi masak tadi siang aku berdo'a tuk mbak Endah, jam 1 siang aku jadi deg- degan mbak!!! kebayang waktu aku persentasi ku di Moestopo dulu.....

Selamat mbak Endah atas keberhasilannya meraih PhD.
Selamat....selamat...juga untuk Faros. Juga tak lupa suami mbak Endah nun jauh disana yg setia dan selalu mensupport mbak Endah dalam memperjuangkan study-nya.
Subhanallah Allah maha adil...maha segalaNya....

Semoga ilmu yang didapat dapat diterapkan, dijalani dan diamalkan dalam jalan
Allah.
Btw gimana tambalannya ? lepaskah?

Wassalam
Iref, Iwan, Fadlan dan Rifa

Alhamdullillah....Mbak Endah...senengnya Faruk mamanya selesai PhD...selamat ya...semoga ilmu yang diperolah dapat menambah keridhoan Allah pada Mbak Endah sekeluarga dan membawa berkah bagi kita semua...amin ya rabbul alamin..

he..he..bener ya...Faros....ketuker sama orang yang sewa rumah ku..namanya Farouk...

Wass. wr wb
HRA. SRN & HLH

Delicious cake

2007-03-26T23:22:00.000+01:00

Today, I made a cake. Actually I wanted to made pandan cake, but Farros said that he doesn't like the green cake. So... I canged the pandan essence with the coklat. He loves coklat a lot. :)
Farros helped me to mix the ingredients then he waited the cake done in front of the oven. He said mum why take so long to finish it, i want to taste it.
Thus I asked him to go up stair, watching power ranger while waiting the cake.
The cake is very delicious, not to dry and very smoot.. oh, I can not tell you. Because for the second, the cake gone.. everybody love it.
Someday I will make it for you, do you want???

The first worst day

2007-03-19T20:50:00.000Z

Monday, 19/03/07, the first time Farros and I go to our daily activity after we have sick for almost 2 weeks.
Farros was going to school with so many tears... because he still wanted to stay at home. But Mum push him to go... and finally he arrived at school with happy face. He was doing right, but I thought he was so tired at school today. He had been sleeping after school for more than 3 hours, and slept until morning.

For me, the first day is very sadness. I am still feeling dizzy, with running nose and cough. Until Helen, who sat next to me said, it is better you go home and take a rest. Oh.... very terrible, especially when I vomited at office. But after that I felt so relieve, and I can continue working.

At 3 a'clock, I finished working, and I run away to the bus stop, because the snow was coming. SNOW??? Yes.. very heavy and unfortunately my coat without hood and I forgot to bring my umbrella... so I felt my head so hurt with the ice block from the sky. Oh.. God.. please forgive me... sorry I am tired to continue, my tummy is hurt and my body so weak.

After KO

2007-03-17T19:04:00.000Z

Thank to Allah for the healty life that we have.
Because of the cough virus, Farros and I have to stay home almost two weeks. It is very terrible, because your body will feel so weak, with fever, headache, cough and running nose. So you cannot do anything... during the virus time.
GP only said you can take paracetamol to reduce the pain, after 'the time' you will be better. Oh.. no... how come? I have to wait my healty without do anything?
But what can I do. I have to wait and the time will be past. And now... I am feeling better, I can go for shopping, read book or writing this small story in this blog.
Just say thanks to Allah for everytime He is giving to me... with wonderful experience and understanding about the healty.
And thank to Dad and all friends who help me during this time.

Bury...oh.. Bury

2007-03-04T06:07:00.000Z

Today we went to a friend house, mbak Nurul, Bury. She is Indonesian women who married with British for almost 13 years. They are lovely couple. Farros and I went there by bus, then they pick us up at the bus station.

She is also happy cooking. She gave us with so many food until I couldn't eat anymore. :-P. Also she gave us somany food to bring, so it could be made me no need cook for a week. :) Thanks.
Next time we will come again, don't worry.

an hour worrying

2007-02-20T19:35:00.000Z

After I pick farros up from school, I planned to go to shopping. But unfortunately Farros didn't want to go. I couldn't leave him alone at home, so I was waiting my friends.

When my friend came, I was hurry up to go, cos I was worry that the shop has been closed. That is right, when I got off from the bus, I saw Iceland was closed. :(

I decide to go to other shop, but.. that means it take more time. I tried to call farros, but... opsssss!! I forgot to bring my mobile. Oh.. no!! I just remembered that my friend will go to MWF for studing each Tuesday evening.

I just put everything in my shopping bag, without thinking about the price anymore. I just pray that he is ok at home.

After finish my shopping, I have to wait the bus.... why the bus came so lately, please I need to go home quickly. Then when I opened the door, I called farros, but he was in the room and he didin't hear me. So I was hurry up to go up and to see my beloved son, Farros. Oh... He put the weight in front of the door, so it was making me little bit worry to know whatwas going on. And Farros said that he was little bit afraid cos mum went out.

Thank to allah that he is okay and I got all the food for us.

A mid term holiday

2007-02-18T17:54:00.000Z

Nothing special with this holiday. Mummy went to work everyday, and I stayed with tante Tika and Diva. Almost all the time I was watching cartoon and TV.

But this weekend Mum and I went to Manchester Museum Science and Industry. I love play all the time there. I can pull up and down a car using my small hand, playing tornado and earthquake, also playing sound, bubble and many hand display. I like to go there, and I will go there again and again until 99999999999 times :P

2007-02-02T06:46:00.000Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARROS!!!

(02/02/2002 - 02/02/2007)

Happy Birthday, Farros. Wish you to be a sholeh boy. (Grandma)

Congrat!Farros, may Allah teach you the right way of life, make you blessed child.

Well done, Farros

2007-01-02T08:34:00.000Z

'WELL DONE, Farros', said Mrs. Morton, Headteacher of Temple Primary School, when Farros got his award.

You are briliant my son. Mum and Dad are proud of you. Keep try to learn more, ok.

Happy Eid-ul-adha and New Year 2007

2007-01-01T17:13:00.000Z

Eid mubarak, thanks to Allah for the joys, grace and wonderful life. May Allah forgives our sin and remind us to follow the right way.

Happy New Year 2007
May our dreams come true... happiness and thankful to Allah!