mobile phone

This is the 1st time I use my mobile 2 send a post in my blog. The bip in this phone makes me very happy, especially when I got texts from him. Read his name my hearth will run fastly, moreover, when i read d text. Him, him and him r always in my mids.

missing u

I miss you so much... especially when I read your papers, texts, and emails.
I proud of you.. you have done many things in your life.
How you can do everything which only 4 years differences between us? You have h-Index 3 with 23 citations, but I only have h-Index 1 and only 7 citations.
Hope I can follow you and make you proud on me.

I have a bit disappointed news. Two of my proposal had not received the grants. So sad... because I think I will get 1 this year, then I will send a proposal for next year.
Please help me to get this dream...........

So what are you doing during this weekend? dinner out, watching movie, or just playing computer as usual?
Just wanna say... have a lovely weekend and talk to you Monday.
Take care......

jika aku jatuh cinta

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya pada-Mu, agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk mencintai-Mu.

Ya Muhaimin, jika aku jatuh cinta, jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak melebihi cintaku pada-Mu

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati, izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut pada-Mu, agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta semu.

Ya Rabbana, jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling pada hati-Mu.

Ya Rabbul Izzati, jika aku rindu, rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku rindu, jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku merindukan syurga-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih-Mu, janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhirmu.

Ya Allah, jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah, jika Kau halalkan aku merindui kekasih-Mu, jangan biarkan aku melampaui batas sehingga melupakan aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepada-Mu.

Ya Allah Engaku mengetahui bahwa hati-hati ini telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada-Mu, telah berjumpa pada taat pada-Mu, telah bersatu dalam dakwah pada-MU, telah berpadu dalam membela syariat-Mu. Kokohkanlah ya Allah ikatannya. Kekalkanlah cintanya. Tunjukilah jalan-jalannya. Penuhilah hati-hati ini dengan nur-Mu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada-dada kami dengna limpahan keimanan kepada-Mu dan keindahan bertawakal di jalan-Mu. (Yesi Elsandra, special untuk yang saling mencintai karena-Nya)

Andai...

Ya Allah terima kasih telah memberikan hambaMu yang hina ini menerima begitu besar anugerah, merasakan perasaan yang sudah lama tidak pernah terasakan lagi.

Begitu besar nikmat ini, Ya Allah, alhamdulillah. Semoga ini tidak hanya dalam angan-angan atau perasaan, tetapi nikmat yang benar2 Engkau kirim kepada hambaMu ini.

Ya Allah sempurnakanlah nikmat ini menjadi lebih barokah di jalanMu, bagi kebaikan hamba dan keluarga hamba. Dia begitu mempesona dengan teguhnya mengikuti jalan Islam, sholat...

When I see his tender lovely eyes, my heart bit so hard. For the first time when I see him in front of me. First day was a long meeting, that made me know him, look at him, talk to him.
Then he came again two weeks ago, I missed him so much, when I see him, I always see his passion eyes, and my heart bit.. bit... bit so fast, again and again because he talked to me and looked at me. It was a short time... I still missed him much when he left me......... then I keep text and email him to reduce this feeling.
Ya Allah please forgive me if I do wrong...... No, I think this feeling from Him, I never ask to get this feeling.
He came again for two days... a long wonderful day. I was very tired in my body, but my feeling was very very happy. I could close my body to him, then talking and enjoy his tender lovely eyes looking at me. But I never touch him, just 5 cm left behind me and him. Oh..I was really happy.
Then we talked about our interested matter... earthquake, seismic, non engineering building,... yes a heavy topic for people... but we enjoyed the conversation. I told him about what I had done and what I want to do. He also told me about what he done previously about what I have done... thus we can share each other.
Today we sent texts and email many time.. talking about Farros and also for join research. Hehehe.. yes you are right, I could tell him my feeling, but I told him about my situation, hope he understand what I said implicitly.
I don't want to loss him, but I don't want to push him.... so I just pretend that everything is just a multi relationship in our field... and not in our love life.

Hope I can get an idea, how to make him closer and closer to me. Please friends help me, tell him about my feeling.
Ya Allah, please protect and forgive me.

Amien... alhamdulillah.

Happy Birthday

1st is my birthday, than 2nd is Farros's birthday. It was wonderful. We have dinner out site then in the morning, we have SELAMATAN at my work. People pray for me and farros. Just hope that Allah gives the healthfulness for me, and this thyroid is gone away........................
amien