my bones

How many bones we have in our body?
Hmm... I don't remember it.... so what the point?

Just feeling that my bones are so hurt........ so exhausted.....
My friend said that I have to go for a rest, take everything easily and just be happy for everything in this life.

When feeling this blue... I just need my best friend to talk with...... where are you now???????? still sleeping.. ops yes you are, it is still 2.30am in your time.
Have sweet dream of me... lol.

tired weekend

My dear,

I am very tired... I don't have fruitful weekend, but I did something which useful. What is it? Yes, you are right, as I mention few days ago, my home is ready to use... so these Saturday and Sunday I brought all my stuff to home. It is very exhausted work, since I did everything by myself. Packing, driving, cleaning the unpacking.... I hope you are here and help me....

But don't worry, I have my angel who gives support and makes me all the time. I think my angel is also very tired, thus he has his snoring now and I guess I will follow him.
So have sweet dream for you and talk to you tomorrow.

Missing you so much.........

DEWA 19 DEALOVA LYRICS

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah
dalam tidur mu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
kerana langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
kerana hati telah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu
yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau ahu bahwa ku
selalu memujamu
tanpa mu sepinya waktu
merantai hati
bayangmu.....seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rindu ku pada mu
seperti udara yang ku hela
kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yang bisa
membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa
hilang..... dan sepi

mine?? yours??

Hi,

Hope you have fruitful weekend with your beloved son.

Do you know, when I told my friend about my feeling to you, he said that I have to forget it. He ask me that I have to be a professional person in work, don't put my feeling that can affect my work with you.

Hmm... A good suggestion, but what can I said, that this feeling so strong and push me to be always closed to you.
I wanna be a part of your life, sharing this joy and painful life with you, support each other, since we have a same subject and interest in our work and so on.

I know... I don't want to disturb your family, if you have... since I don't know that you are single or married. I just know that you have 11 years old boy. But it doesn't mean that you are not single??? right????

Just ask Allah SWT to gives the best for our life in this world and after....

Missing you so much........

Love,
Your secret admirer

lonely night

...............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......................
Stay alone, play alone, think alone, everything I have to do by myself.
Where r u?????...................................................................
...............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......................

Happy Again........

Dear Friends,

Finally, I received a text from him this morning, it was giving me a smile in my face after feeling so blue.
I couldn't restrain my heart to get closer to him, so.. I called him with 'a technical' question, about the proposal. Wow... so wonderful... after almost 2 weeks, just received his texts and emails, I hear his voice again.
We talk.. talk.. with all the possibility of OUR research, until I have to meet my students... oh, silly student, why they are disturbing me?
After we got a conclusion, he promised me to find out the literature and will talk to me again........ oh.. he said AGAIN???? Oh.. he turn on me! lol

Then I was busy with all Lecturer's certification, filling QS forms and have a afternoon class. AND you know... during my class I received his texts again... a long texts, and I can hold down my heart to talk to him.
So I call him again.... almost an hour I talks to hims, with the previous idea for our research proposal. Then.....we have a NEW conclusion, that we will try to do a research about DAMPER.

Do you know damper? it is a equipment that can reduce the vibration usually during earthquake. I think I also need a damper to reduce a hard bit in my heart........ hehehe...

So, I can sing a lovely song again... lalalala..lilili...

Breaking Heart???

Hi all,

I am feeling blue this morning... Just got feeling, that he doesn't like me and try to make a distance with me.
You break my heart.

Days and days... I always think about you, feeling happy when I remember you, remember the way you look and talk to me.... everything is so perfect.

But now...... I am not sure..................................................................................................... so sad.................. so blueeeeee...............................
Should I tell you my feeling???

The way you look at me

The way you look at me with your tenderly eyes... I can't resist your charm. I am falling in love with you.

I am so happy that I get this feeling again.. after long--long time ago. Almost 8 years, I never feel this lovely feeling. You came in front of me, then... everything is changing, even I never know your feeling. I just hope that you have the same feeling. But I couldn't ask you to fall in love with me... coz this feeling from Him. Allah knows the best for us.

Thanks to Allah, Who send you to me and make me so happy. Hope you understand 'this feeling'.......

today, 6 march 2010

This weekend, farros is playing at his friend house, Aldo. Usually when i pick him up, he will folow me. But 2nite, oh God, he asked me 2 give a permition 4 him 2 stay over. Oh., he is big enough now. I miss my baby